Listening to: TeamSpeak convos
Reading: Japanese for Busy people Kana V3.5
Drinking: The Juice... tis good juice
I know I often disappear and I am not showing up in anyone's feed much anymore. I just wanted to say thank you to those who still support and watch me. You guys are the best.
Things have been a whirlwind here lately. After having a child I was so busy in his world that I practically left my own. How could I find time to draw and paint and do anything that didn't involve him. Things became different though as he grew older. I was more time for myself then. I had a job that I loved. A very supportive and loving husband. OH, and of course my little cute booger. No really, he's a butt, but I love him. :> I guess you could say I had it all and then it all started to crumble. My son started to pull away from me because I was working so much (i really enjoyed what I did). My husband got a traveling job that made him leave for weeks even months at a time. My job then flipped on me and we didn't know if we were going to get laid off or if we were going to stay. People kept dropping like flies putting all the pressure on those of us who stayed. It was a mess. I would go into work and we would all be pretty depressed about the situation. I'd come home and I couldn't talk to my husband because he was still at work in a different time zone. My son would rather run away then give me a hug or let me even play toys with him. Even feeding him became a nightmare. My heart was breaking and I felt so alone. It was tough and I thought it wouldn't pass but....
I broke free (feeling bad for those I left behind but I had to go.) And as I left one place and found another, my husband came home. He found another job that allows him to be here near to us. Now my child is happy to see me come home form the three day work week. He yells "Mommy' when I come through the door. I hadn't felt this good in a very long time, and I guess that is why I was able to pick up the pencils again and start pushing more drawings and works out. I guess I just wanted to say it feels good to be back again. I feel like for the first time, in a long time, that I am me again.
Sorry to ramble, but I needed to get that off my chest.